I did it!

Today at 13:03 I've received a long awaited email with my examination results.

I'm super proud of myself, especially that I struggled so much during the revision period. But I did it! By hard work and thanks to an overflow of support from Mr Magic and all my friends. I wouldn't have done it without them. They've encouraged me, believed in me all the way through, even when I saw no hope for tomorrow, when I sobbed miserably in the library and refused to get out of bed. They were there for me all this time, even when I was super annoying and didn't want them around. I'm so blessed having such wonderful people around me.

A lesson from this? Never give up. It might sound like a cliche, but it's true. You might need people to carry you through (or push you through) certain parts of the journey, as it happened with me, but you can do more than you think. I'm probably nowhere near my limits yet. It is scary to explore them, yes. It might seem like you can never progress. But you can! With a little faith.

Another lesson from my exam struggle is that you need to be brave enough to ask for help. Ask around, ask as many people as you think is necessary until you get the support you need. Sadly people cannot read your mind and from personal experience I can say that hiding the emotional turmoil going on inside of you is relatively easy, so you need to reach out to people who care about you. Otherwise you will be left all alone. And it's really not the happiest place to be.

And so the university chapter of my life is nearly complete. Only graduation left now, that's at the end of the month, and it will be it. Can't believe how quickly the time flown by. It's absolutely incredible. But I'm ready to move on to another challenge.

I think I deserve a star sticker now.

Finals in tweets and pictures.

One down, eight to go #finals

— Katarzyna Zielinska (@katzielinska7) May 30, 2016

Second exam gone fine despite migraine and a ridiculous amount of painkillers I had to consume in the last 24h #finals #iamblessed

— Katarzyna Zielinska (@katzielinska7) May 31, 2016

Another exam done. Was actually fun to write plus I had time for some doodling #finals pic.twitter.com/7xRxpOXSpA

— Katarzyna Zielinska (@katzielinska7) June 1, 2016

Ugh, at least I don't have to do a land exam ever again #finals

— Katarzyna Zielinska (@katzielinska7) June 2, 2016

Finals isn't about knowledge of the law any more. It's now a physical endurance test.

— Riane Trotman (@riane_trotman) June 2, 2016

#finals day 6. The state of my pink carnation symbolises my physical and mental exhaustion. 3 more to go! pic.twitter.com/ngoxzodZTy

— Katarzyna Zielinska (@katzielinska7) June 4, 2016

Juris exam in a nutshell: there's a general duty to obey the law of a reasonably just legal system & law should not enforce all of morality

— Katarzyna Zielinska (@katzielinska7) June 6, 2016

#finals nearly over, two more to go! Woohoo!

— Katarzyna Zielinska (@katzielinska7) June 6, 2016

#finals nearly over, two more to go! Woohoo!

— Katarzyna Zielinska (@katzielinska7) June 6, 2016

Red carnation day finally. In four hours #finals will be over! #hooray pic.twitter.com/8wcMQwTKuh

— Katarzyna Zielinska (@katzielinska7) June 10, 2016

Made it to the end of #finals!!! pic.twitter.com/5YV3gMN3zc

— Katarzyna Zielinska (@katzielinska7) June 10, 2016

Time flies: my fours years at Oxford are nearly over.

It's strange to think that in a couple of weeks I will no longer be a student. Real life will begin, with bills, banking, weekly food shopping, waking up for work and being a responsible adult. It's both exciting and scary at the same time.

On numerous occasions I complained about Oxford. We do not get many contact hours, my degree is judged exclusively on the basis of nine exams crammed into two weeks at the end of my final year, Oxford is hugely male-dominated and mental health issues are not tackled enough.

At the same time, I will be sad to leave. I will miss Oxford so much. 

Oxford has taught me to be independent. Not only in my studies, since I had to find my own way through endless reading lists and stacks of books, but also in life. I've learnt how to deal with people, how to work in a team, how to care for my friends and how to care for myself. It's been a very fruitful four years. I've met so many wonderful people. I really hope that they will remain a  part of my life, even though we will be all over the place.

I'm immensely thankful for these four years. I'm thankful for each opportunity I had to challenge myself. I'm thankful for my fantastic friends. I'm thankful for the most wonderful man in the world.

Veni. Vidi. Amavi.

I'm starting my Teach First Summer Institute at the end of this month. I will be moving to the Isle of Wight in August and this is something I dreamt of for a long time. I didn't mind where exactly I would work, but I really wanted to by the sea and, well, you cannot get much closer to the sea than live on an island, right? I suppose the title of my blog will gain a new meaning, I will truly be on a small island then.

Almost there.

I've done six exams in the past six days and, gosh, I have enough! Thank god there's only three more left now, including a short juris exam and my favourite PIL.

My body is at the brink of exhaustion and I'm so looking forward to being free again (for a week, haha, but better this than nothing at all). Waking up every day at 6am is not fun, but I'm slowly getting used to it, since it will be my routine once I start working at school. A friend of mine commented that these finals are no longer a test of knowledge of the law, but a physical endurance test and this is really true. We are all just tired at this point, so no wonder that examiners' reports for subjects examined at the end always voice a disappointment at the standard of the scripts. Well, no wonder really, since you subject us to so much pressure in such a short space of time. But at least it will be over soon, it's much better than if exams stretched across a good few week as some people's do.

I need to say that I am very proud of myself that I survived last week and that I am in a decent mental state. Given that I thought about suspending my studies, I've made an incredible progress, thanks to all the support that I've received.

And I've learnt two things from this emotional roller-coaster that I've been on in the past couple of months. First, you need to really believe in yourself. Whatever happens, just do your best, push through and keep believing that it will somehow work out in the end. Second, don't be scared to ask for help. Don't be afraid to depend on somebody. Make this leap of faith and open yourself up. Because others are there for you, you just need to talk to them, since sometimes it is not at all obvious that you need help (unless you are sobbing in the library, yep, that happened too). Somewhat I'm even happy that it was so difficult to get through. I have even more reasons to be proud. And a lot to talk about.

I'm almost there. Five more days.

Daily rituals.

My mornings are usually either absolutely mad or all over the place. I either have so much to do that I don't know where to start (so I end up doing everything at once) or I take absolutely ages to go through all the essential morning functions.

I'm trying to introduce some morning rituals into my life to bring some order and regularity to this madness. I use an app called Fabulous which allows you to set up ritual reminders and alarms, gives a number of suggestions as to what sort of rituals you can implement into your day (in the morning, afternoon and evening). It also has challenges which you do over three consecutive days, which is like playing a game, really. Better than collecting stickers for each our of revision.

Here are some rituals that I'm trying to implement, with more or less success. Apparently it takes 21 days to make a habit. Well, with me it probably takes more than that, I'm a very stubborn person when it comes to such things (see my repeated failure to complete a 21 day junk food challenge).

Morning rituals:

have a great breakfast: 15 minutes of exclusively me time with something delicious to eat and a cup of green tea.

to do list: apparently to do apps do not work, so I got a notebook and each day I try to write down three most important things to do that day, and if there are more than that, I arrange it into A, B and C categories, A being the most important, C- the least important.

eat the frog: "if the first thing you do each morning is to eat a live frog, you can go through the day with the satisfaction of knowing that that is probably the worse things that is going to happen to you all day long." (Mark Twain)

block distractions: Oh, I need to do this more often, I have an extension called Focus 45 on my computer, which essentially blocks all the naughty sites for 45-minute periods at the time, helping me to get more done.

Afternoon rituals:

drink tea: I probably drink excessive amounts of tea each day, but apparently it calms you down, and this is something I really need now.

take a walk: this doesn't always happen, but when the weather is nice and I can concentrate no longer, a brisk walk in Christchurch Meadow is what I need the most.

Evening rituals

clean&tidy up: Alright, so I'm not good at that one, mostly because I don't have much time. But I'm working on it. Resolution for this weekend: tidy up the pile of clothes on y bedroom floor.

prayer time: Another one I struggle with, but I think it's so important to slow down in the evening and just be with the Mighty One.

My term (almost) without meat.

I tried to go vegetarian a couple of years ago and it was a total failure. I was hungry all the time and generally not determined enough to keep it up in the face of delicious meat options.

This time, it was different. I've actually really enjoyed my diet this term. Meat has appeared on my plate only a handful of times, though I still keep some fish in the menu, but will try to phase it out next term. I definitely got some more variety in my meals: butternut squash peanut curry, stir-fires, potato and leek pie, pear and Stilton tart, veggie pasta sauces, fennel risotto... These were are delicious and filling. However, kidney bean burgers were a failure on both occasions when I attempted to make them, but maybe next time I'll be more successful. 

I'm really looking forward to making black bean spinach enchiladas and maybe I'll have enough courage to make something with tofu. I still stay away from falafel: I like it a lot, but when I tried to make it from scratch it was major disaster, even more so than the kidney bean burgers.

Admittedly, being a vegetarian is inconvenient, especially if you spend a lot of time with meat-eaters. It requires some planning, because I cannot simply heat up some hot dogs, but it is healthier for me. And for the environment too. I'm not sure about arguments for vegetarianism of a sort that it is cruel and painful for the animals. It probably it, though we still have more humane methods of killing food than a few centuries ago. I probably wouldn't like to kill my food with my own hands anyway. But I do worry about the planet, we produce so much meat these days, and it is simply not sustainable. You might think what sort of a difference I make as a single person, but if each one of us decided not to eat meat on a single day each week, the impact would be huge. But the choice is yours.

I'm not one of those fighting vegetarians who will keep telling you that it is one and only proper way to live, but it's worth looking beyond our own little lives and see the bigger impact we make. There's 7bn of us. We do make a huge impact with our daily choices.

All the freebies.

Over the course of the last few weeks I have worked at a few career fairs. I must say I do appreciate the opportunity to do some more physical work every now and then. Running up and down the stairs carrying boxes and pushing a trolley around is quite tiring, but it's also rather satisfactory once everything is set up, all the exhibitors are there and the first visitors are let in- everything comes together.

The best part of it is probably all the freebies and there was plenty. Apart from classic pens and notebooks (good quality ones though!) I got a kitchen timer, a giant tea cup, a usb stick, mini torch, jelly beans, Ben's Cookies (!!!) and a spork. Oh, and I would have forgotten about a rubber duck.

I always wonder how the decision as to what sort of promotional materials you give out are made. I mean, why would you give out a rubber duck if you're a consultancy firm? Or a torch as a law firm? At least pens and post-it notes are actually useful to students, but some of the things I've seen were really random. Not sure whether it is a good way about marketing. Unless you pair it up with Ben's Cookies. Anything is great if paired up with Ben's Cookies. But otherwise, if it's something really random, I don't think it works in company's favour.

In any case, I've had a lot of fun during those fairs. There's something really nice about doing something very different than reading a law textbook. And meeting a lot of interesting and fun people. I was actually surprised how much I've enjoyed it, because on some days I really felt like I couldn't be bothered to go there and do all this work, but at the end of the day I was really happy, though terribly tired. Good tiredness, when you know you've done a good job.

Sunday Special: "What do you want me to do?"

Coming back to Jesus after a long break is not easy. Maybe it wasn't 20 years of a break, but long enough to make it difficult. But despite being far from the Church, there is this longing inside of me which somehow draws me to God, even when things go terribly wrong. It's quite extraordinary really.

I have two favourite images from the Bible. The first one is when Jesus comes into the temple and throws all the merchants' tables over in terrible anger. There is something very empowering in this, because God Himself shows His human side. And it's ok to be human. To have all these weaknesses, even to get angry and throw tables over sometimes.

The second one is when Jesus heals blind Bartimaeus. Before he does anything, though, he asks 'What do you want me to do for you?' This question has been with me since my first year at uni and regularly comes back to me in prayer. I think many people have these moments when they are completely hopeless, when everything falls apart and the future doesn't look bright at all. In such moments I tend to instinctively turn to prayer and cry out 'God, do something! I can't deal with it myself any more!' But then this crucial question comes in: 'What do you want me to do for you?' What is it that will make you truly happy?

I've asking myself this question quite a lot recently. The answer has not appeared quite yet, but I think I'm heading in the right direction.

Click, click, click!

I urge you to play this video while reading the post below, to get fully embraced by the topic.

 

I hand write my notes in lectures and seminars, simply because my attention drifts away if I type on my laptop. However, most of the people on the course use their electronic equipment for these purposes. The moment the lecturer opens his mouth, their fingers start a race across the keyboard. It sounds as if a swarm of bees entered the room. Apparently some people listen to typing sounds to relax*, but for me it has a completely opposite effect. It freaks me out. Especially that people type so much! What on earth do they type? I sat in the very same lecture, made a half-page of notes while others have been typing almost constantly for the entire hour! I know that some of this typing was very important facebook messages, but still. Do they type up the lecture verbatim? Am I missing something important, because I don't write until my hand wants to detach from the rest of my body? Or should I be happy what an efficient note-taker I am?

Laptops should be banned in lecture theatres and seminar rooms. The sound of typing is distracting, if nothing else. Sometimes, when I'm not sat at the front,  I can't even hear the lecturer properly because 100 odd people bang on their keyboards. Plus, seeing other people's screens with all the distracting stuff up there (amazon, twitter, facebook, news sites, ebay, reddit, you name it) is not helping to concentrate on what is going on in the lecture.

Instead, why don't we get back to a good old pen and paper? Low cost and, most importantly, quiet. (Good practice for exams as well, it's important to train your hand to write, without auto-correct.) Sometimes old-fashioned methods are better than the new ones. I believe this is so with note-taking. You simply don't pay as much attention to what you type as you do when you write. There's also apparently such a thing as muscle memory, so if you write something with your own hand, you'll retain it better. Apparently writing in blue ink also helps. I'm no memory scientist, but there is something in all of this. I do notice that I retain material better if it's hand-written. And, oh yes, we'll also avoid this terrible noise during lecture. I'd really appreciate that actually.

*This is actually a thing. When I was looking for a video to accompany this post, hundreds of entries came up on youtube. People actually do record themselves typing things up on different types of keyboards, you can find all sorts of videos from short 3-minute ones to some dragging for hours (I'm serious). I would never have believed anyone could consider typing sound as something relaxing, but people claim that it calms them down. Peculiarities of the human brain.

Chill miss.

I've been stressing out so much about these upcoming collections that it wasn't healthy at all.

 

Do they count towards anything?

 

No.

 

Would it help if I had a mental breakdown?

 

No.

 

Given the answers to the above two questions, I resolved not to worry about it too much. I've always had not so great collection results, but at the end of the day, it's finals that matter and I'm determined to get myself sorter by then. I will be. In the meantime I might have a serious talk with my tutors, but oh well. What's important now is that I remain positive and have enough energy to get me through this year.

Especially that there are so many exciting things coming up! Tomorrow tea and cake in the Chaplaincy, dinner with my Polish folks, Captain America visiting, Itchy Feet party (anyone wants to join btw?), G&D's treat soon... It actually looks like it might be an entertaining term.

So I'm chilling with my bowl of bolognese. Om nom nom nom

Back in the bubble.

I've been back in Oxford for a couple of weeks now. My new house is absolutely amazing, I love everything about it, even an awkwardly placed shower and rattling radiators. Luckily I got the master bedroom, so I have a lot of space (to spread my papers all over the floor). Posters have all gone up on the walls already, shelves and cupboards have filled in and the only thing that is missing is some fresh flowers.

Work has been rather daunting recently I have to admit, but I take it step by step. Can you imagine that mortgages is something that I find really easy to revise? Juris has been an absolute nightmare, I guess examiners will need to put up with me waffling about nothing in particular in response to their philosophical questions. Somehow I hope that PIL classes will help with this, to get some more conceptual meat to work with.

Good news: I've got a Teach first offer to teach Maths from Sept 2016. This is so exciting... It has been my dream for a while and I'm really really happy. Now there is a stack of formal requirements to get through, it's rather boring and time consuming (and also expensive in some instances), but it needs to be done. I have literacy and numeracy test coming up this week. Literacy is not too bad, I usually do quite well in spelling and grammar parts of practice tests (alleluia for all the boring English classes back in Poland, these definitely pay off now), my punctuation has improved but reading comprehension is lagging behind, I'm probably just overthinking the questions. With numeracy I had to re-train my brain to do mental arithmetic (~20seconds per question which is read out to you). It is quite difficult, because I haven't done maths for so long, and also because I'm admittedly a bit slow in mental calculations. But I'm getting there, improved from 55% to over 80 in a week (still dutifully revising my times tables though).

I love teaching!

It's been quiet down here for a while, but Teach First Insight Programme took my whole time. It involved some rather early mornings (including wake up call at 5:50 am to make sure I manage to get to school before 8:30 am) and some very exciting stuff.

First week was largely talks and workshops, but I've picked up so many teaching tricks and ways of looking at education. Second week was more interesting in a way, because I spent four days in a school equipped with a staff pass and a lot of passion. I actually loved being back in school again as a teacher. There's something great about being called 'miss' and walking down the school yard with this sense of importance of some sort (although, as I've learnt the hard way, you need to remember to check your skirt before leaving the loo: in case it gets caught up in your tights and you march quarter of a school yard with your bump exposed. Not very professional at all.) And I just enjoy it so much to be with students and explain things to them. Although I've seen a few grim sights, including a girl saying that she doesn't care about doing work and being terribly rude to the teacher and just general apathy evident in many of the kids there. It's really sad, because most of the teachers do care and do make an effort to facilitate their learning. But overall it was an inspiring experience: I've met a boy who would like to go to Oxford, another one who aspires to be a police officer and it seems that it is for such pupils that it is worth to make an extra effort as a teacher. You will encounter a lot of apathy, but there will be a few who need a little push and will make their dreams come true.

My journey into teaching

Personalised timetable

Preparation for my lesson on probabilities

I think that at this point I'm pretty sure I want to apply for Teach First, actually I'll hopefully get round to it sooner rather than later. It would be fantastic to become a teacher. Maybe I found my vocation? At least a temporary one?

Learning how to learn.

At the start of my degree I was told that I need to learn myself how to learn law. But no one has ever shown me any learning techniques which I could use to figure out for myself how my brain works and what is most beneficial way of studying for me. Instead I was given an example of notes from one of the tutors and that was really it.

Oh, and yes, they told me to study hard.

So now, a year away from finals, I'm finding retaining any information in my memory, and understanding them, increasingly hard. Even land law which I really loved last year seems alien. So in search for help I have turned to a couple of books on memory and an online course.

The course can be found under this link. I haven't had a chance to test what I've learnt yet, and it will only really become measurable during finals, but I'm much more hopeful now.

I think the biggest lesson I've taken from the course so far is that learning requires time and focused attention. It sounds fairly common sense really, but it often seemed to me that people just remembered something after reading the textbook once, and it might be the case with some of them, but not everyone has photographic memory. I don't. So I need to take my time with it and not expect immediate results.

Attention is something that I struggle with, especially when I'm reading a textbook on my own. Today there is so much distractions everywhere, too many stimuli bombarding my brain from every direction. The only way to deal with it is actually to turn off any internet connection, switch off my laptop and put my Pomodoro timer on. Then for 25 minutes I just focus on whatever I want to do. 25 minutes  doesn't seem like enough, but really I get more than within those 25 focused minutes than I do during two hours of work distracted with flipping through pointless websites.

          

           

As for the books, The Memory Book gives a very helpful technique about remembering lists. I was aware of it, but never got it so clearly explained. The basic idea is that you need to create a very clear mental picture, as ridiculous as possible and link one item with another by way of such images. Although it's presented in the context of lists in the book, it can be used for other things, for example I started using it to remember what cases are about. My recent invention was to remember Pulhofer case which was about a test of a perverse factual finding by imagining an exhibitionist (pervert) in a pullover. Strong mental image. Plus using the technique of remembering names and new words: find a word that sounds similar.

Another thing I've realised is that attitude is very important. This is why I abandoned land law for now and instead started revising admin. It's much more common sense and there's simply less to get grips of, which means I can actually remember what I've learnt and in result become more positive about revision. Instead of feeling like a complete failure, now I feel like I'm completely capable of preparing for finals. It will take time, but I have over a year. It's enough time.

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There are some interesting articles from around the web listed here, have a look, they give an interesting tips about how to learn:

• http://www.wsj.com/articles/the-power-of-the-doodle-improve-your-focus-and-memory-1406675744
• http://www.forbes.com/sites/travisbradberry/2014/10/08/multitasking-damages-your-brain-and-career-new-studies-suggest/
• http://www.telegraph.co.uk/technology/3304496/Be-lucky-its-an-easy-skill-to-learn.html

I really hope this post will help people like me who feel overwhelmed or insufficient. You can do this! It's probably that you've never been told how to go about learning. But once you know, it'll become easier. I know from experience.

More than 10.

Have I already told you about my 10 item wardrobe plan?

Inspired by this talk, I thought 'what a brilliant idea!' Less clothes, but better quality. In general I try to have less, but live more, so a 10 item wardrobe seemed like something for me.

The idea is simple. For each season you have 10 basic items (a dress, skirt, trousers, shirts) which are of very good quality, so that they last long rather than looking like rubbish after one wash. Extra supplementary items are allowed, but you can't go overboard (10 basic items do not square with 100 pairs of shoes and boxes of jewelry).

I haven't actually execute this properly, but nonetheless I thought I was doing fine in terms of the number of clothes. Looking at my friends, especially female, with shelves overflowing with clothes they never wear, I thought I had a good sense of control in terms of buying things.

And then I've decided to fold all of my clothes nicely, so I took them out of the drawers and embarked onto the folding adventure which resulted in this:

As you can tell, even with a quick look this is more than 10 items. In fact, it is much more. 

In fact, I've counted 4 shirts, 5 jumpers, 1 pair of jeans, 5 dresses, 11 (sic!) skirts, 2 cardigans, not to forget probably around 10 tops and t-shirts. Clearly this is not good. Not when you want to have a neat 10 item wardrobe.

The thing is, I do wear these things. This is pretty much everything that I have. I have a all-year-long set of clothes and I'm not sure whether I can, or should reduce it any further. I've recently said goodbye to a pinkish purple cardigan as a sign of entering the adulthood (you don't look particularly mature in this shade of purple. Maybe I should say goodbye to a few skirts too, but I'll need to think it over. Skirts are really dear to me.

But this is something that I definitely need to work on, to reduce the amount of clothes I have to some more manageable number. Seems like a good goal for the rest of March, could probably be counted towards my spring cleaning.

Is studying abroad just a whim?

What a fantastic idea has the Polish Ministry of Education come up with! It will finance studies abroad of 100 most talented Polish students. What a grand idea! And it will cover the costs of fees, accommodation, maintenance, travel and insurance. Fantastic, isn't it?

Well, there are two major problems with this. First, a smaller one really, although based on a flawed logic,  is that to be released from an obligation to repay you need to either do your PhD in Poland or make social and health security payments here for 5 years during a 10 year period after finished the sponsored studies. I guess the idea behind it was that only by physically attaching somebody to Poland they can 'give back' hat they got, but this is surely not right, you can still work on things that will benefit Poland living elsewhere, paying your social security contributions elsewhere, doing your PhD elsewhere. Secondly, the grant will only be available to students who finished their undergraduate studies in Poland (or 3 years of a 'uniform Master's studies, which largely comes down to the same thing). However, there is much more funding available to Master's students anyway, it's really the undergrads that need financial help. I've had plenty of young people about to finish school asking me how to pay for undergraduate studies, because money is just unavailable. Before I started my course I also worried a lot, but fortunately was lucky enough to get a bursary directly from Oxford. But not everyone is so lucky.

Someone shared this news and one of  the comments said that studying abroad is just a whim and Polish government should not sponsor it. Again, two things here. To deal with the government sponsoring it, I think that the British system is superior here: you take a loan and repay it after your studies. Repayments are small . Of course EU students don't get maintenance grants, which makes it difficult to gather money for living, but the same loan system could be potentially established.

However, more importantly, how could you say that wanting to receive top quality education is just a whim? Let's be honest: Polish universities are not the top of the world. They lack funding and are overcrowded. Old-fashioned structures still prevail. So I don't blame people who want to study abroad, I did it myself. I had a choice: I could study everywhere I wanted and I've chosen the best university I could get into. I've never considered it as something fanciful: I invested in my future, so that I can do something good after my studies. I don't collect degrees: quite frankly I cannot wait to stop studying and start qualifying. Education is something natural though. And everyone should have an opportunity to get the best of it. Studies abroad broaden your horizons, and this is not just an empty phrase. From my own experience I can say that those, who spent some time abroad, either studying or working, are generally more open-minded, understanding and sensitive. Not to say that people who don't do it are doomed to be closed-minded, but why not seize an opportunity?

Funny that going on an Erasmus doesn't provoke such heated discussions. And yet we pay for this whim of hundreds of young people, because it is funded through EU contributions. And such exchange is rarely for grand study purposes: it's rather for making friends and seeing another country, which is not bad in itself, but I think if we question financing someone's studies abroad by the government, we should first look into programmes like Erasmus: doing a whole degree abroad is a completely different thing.

You can read about the programme on the government site here (all in Polish, but translation plugins are a blessing!).